C\u1ea2M \u01a0N B\u1ea0N<\/span><\/p>\n (2002)<\/span><\/p>\n Nguy\u1ec5n Xu\u00e2n Xanh<\/span><\/p>\n L\u1eddi n\u00f3i \u0111\u1ea7u<\/em><\/strong><\/span>. Nh\u00e2n ng\u00e0y T\u1ebft, xin n\u00f3i ch\u00fat chuy\u1ec7n “th\u01a1” n\u1ebfu \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c g\u1ecdi nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf. S\u1ed1 l\u00e0 th\u00e1ng 8, n\u0103m 2002, c\u00e1c b\u1ea1n c\u1ef1u du h\u1ecdc sinh t\u1ea1i CHLB \u0110\u1ee9c nh\u1eefng n\u0103m 70 \u0111ang sinh s\u1ed1ng t\u1ea1i S\u00e0i g\u00f2n \u0111\u00e3 c\u00f3 nh\u00e3 \u00fd l\u00e0m m\u1ed9t bu\u1ed5i t\u1ed1i k\u1ef7 ni\u1ec7m 60 tu\u1ed5i cho t\u00f4i. Ch\u1eb3ng c\u00f3 g\u00ec x\u1ee9ng \u0111\u00e1ng \u1edf t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c h\u01b0\u1edfng bu\u1ed5i ti\u1ec7c t\u1ed1i \u0111\u00f3, t\u00f4i ch\u01b0a l\u00e0m \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c g\u00ec cho qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng, ngo\u00e0i t\u00ecnh b\u1ea1n g\u1eafn b\u00f3 \u0111i chung m\u1ed9t con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng m\u00e0 c\u00e1c b\u1ea1n mu\u1ed1n d\u00e0nh cho t\u00f4i. Trong s\u1ed1 c\u00e1c kh\u00e1ch m\u1eddi c\u00f3 anh V\u00f5 Nh\u01b0 Lanh, T\u1ed5ng bi\u00ean t\u1eadp Th\u1eddi B\u00e1o Kinh T\u1ebf S\u00e0i G\u00f2n, m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1ea1n th\u00e2n thi\u1ebft c\u1ee7a anh em ch\u00fang t\u00f4i, v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t v\u00e0i nh\u00e0 b\u00e1o c\u1ee7a TBKTSG \u0111\u1ebfn d\u1ef1. Anh \u1ea5y mang theo b\u1ea3n in m\u1ed9t s\u1ed1 b\u00e0i vi\u1ebft c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111\u0103ng tr\u00ean b\u00e1o \u0111\u1ec3 l\u00e0m qu\u00e0. Ng\u01b0\u1eddi c\u00f3 s\u00e1ng ki\u1ebfn bu\u1ed5i t\u1ed1i l\u00e0 b\u1ea1n Ph\u1ea1m Nam H\u01b0\u01a1ng, m\u1ed9t trong nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi c\u00f9ng l\u00e0m t\u1edd b\u00e1o Ph\u00f9 Sa<\/em> nh\u1eefng n\u0103m 1980 t\u1ea1i Berlin. B\u1ea1n H\u01b0\u01a1ng l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t c\u00e2y b\u00fat ch\u00ednh t\u00edch c\u1ef1c, t\u00e2m h\u1ed3n \u0111\u1ea7y th\u01a1, anh s\u00e1ng t\u00e1c v\u00e0 d\u1ecbch th\u01a1 \u0110\u1ee9c. Kh\u00f4ng th\u01a1 kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 H\u01b0\u01a1ng<\/em>. \u0110\u00f3 l\u00e0 t\u1edd b\u00e1o v\u1eeba ph\u1ee5c v\u1ee5 sinh ho\u1ea1t H\u1ed9i theo c\u00e1ch “truy\u1ec1n th\u1ed1ng”, v\u1eeba c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng t\u01b0 t\u01b0\u1edfng “\u0111\u1ed5i m\u1edbi”, v\u00e0 mu\u1ed1n \u0111i t\u00ecm m\u1ed9t s\u1ef1 ph\u00e1t tri\u1ec3n m\u1edbi cho c\u00e1 nh\u00e2n trong th\u1eddi h\u1eadu-chi\u1ebfn tranh, “m\u1edf r\u1ed9ng-t\u1ea7m-nh\u00ecn” \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u00f3ng g\u00f3p h\u1eefu hi\u1ec7u h\u01a1n. Anh em ch\u00fang t\u00f4i mu\u1ed1n m\u1ed9t cu\u1ed9c s\u1ed1ng c\u00f3 nhi\u1ec1u ch\u1ea5t v\u0103n h\u00f3a h\u01a1n l\u00e0 ch\u1ec9 c\u00f3 ch\u00ednh tr\u1ecb kh\u00f4 c\u1ee9ng. N\u00f3i chung, n\u00f3i \u0111\u1ec3 cho m\u00ecnh t\u1ef1 c\u00f3 ti\u1ebfng n\u00f3i. V\u00e2ng, nh\u1eefng n\u0103m \u0111\u00f3, anh em ch\u00fang t\u00f4i n\u00f3i nhi\u1ec1u v\u1ec1 th\u01a1, v\u00e0 nh\u1eefng \u00fd t\u01b0\u1edfng nh\u00e2n v\u0103n, nh\u01b0 \u0111\u1ec3 tr\u01b0\u1edfng th\u00e0nh m\u1ed9t c\u00e1ch thi v\u1ecb. H\u00f6lderlin c\u0169ng \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng n\u00f3i, \u1ede s\u00e2u th\u1eb3m t\u1eadn c\u00f9ng, con ng\u01b0\u1eddi l\u00e0 thi v\u1ecb<\/em>.<\/p>\n Ri\u00eang t\u00f4i ray r\u1ee9t v\u1edbi con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng m\u00ecnh \u0111i:<\/p>\n Gi\u1eefa \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng c\u1ee7a cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi tr\u00ean tr\u00e1i \u0111\u1ea5t<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n T\u00f4i s\u1ef1c t\u1ec9nh trong m\u1ed9t khu r\u1eebng t\u0103m t\u1ed1i<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Sau khi con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111i th\u1eb3ng \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecb l\u1ea1c m\u1ea5t r\u1ed3i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Dante, Inferno<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n T\u00f4i c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y gi\u1ed1ng nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf. V\u00e0 \u0111\u00e2u l\u00e0 l\u1ed1i ra?<\/p>\n Kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 v\u00f2ng \u0111\u1eddi n\u00e0o kh\u00e1c h\u01a1n l\u00e0 v\u00f2ng \u0111\u1eddi m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 t\u1ea1o ra cho ch\u00ednh m\u00ecnh.<\/span> <\/em>T\u00f4i c\u00f3 t\u1ef1 do \u0111\u1ec3 l\u1ef1a ch\u1ecdn, ho\u1eb7c l\u00e0m cho hi\u1ec7n tr\u1ea1ng tho\u00e1t ly b\u1eddi b\u1eddi n\u00e0y bi\u1ebfn th\u00e0nh hoa tr\u00e1i, ho\u1eb7c d\u00e3y ch\u1ebft trong \u0111\u00f3.<\/em> (<\/span><\/span>Peter Weiss)<\/span><\/p>\n Theo ngh\u0129a c\u1ee7a Kant, Cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u1ec3 ban t\u1eb7ng cho t\u00f4i, m\u00e0 \u0111\u1ec3 b\u1eaft t\u00f4i ph\u1ea3i gi\u1ea3i<\/em>.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i ho\u00e0n to\u00e0n b\u1ecb b\u1ea5t ng\u1edd v\u1edbi bu\u1ed5i t\u1ed1i sinh nh\u1eadt, “sprachlos”, kh\u00f4ng n\u00f3i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c chi cho th\u00edch h\u1ee3p. Nh\u1eefng ph\u00e1t bi\u1ec3u c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i h\u00f4m \u0111\u00f3 nh\u01b0 c\u1ee7a ng\u01b0\u1eddi t\u1eeb m\u1ed9t th\u1ebf gi\u1edbi xa l\u1ea1 tr\u01b0\u1edbc th\u1ebf gi\u1edbi quen thu\u1ed9c c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i, v\u1ee5ng v\u1ec1, l\u1ea1c l\u1ecfng v\u00e0 c\u1ea3 kh\u00f4ng ph\u00f9 h\u1ee3p v\u1edbi kh\u00f4ng kh\u00ed. Th\u1eadt l\u00e0 b\u1ea5t ng\u1edd. Ngh\u0129 l\u1ea1i, t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y x\u1ea5u h\u1ed5. H\u1ed3n t\u00f4i l\u00fac \u0111\u00f3 nh\u01b0 c\u00f2n phi\u00eau b\u1ea1t \u1edf nh\u1eefng n\u01a1i kh\u00e1c. Sau khi v\u1ec1 nh\u00e0 t\u00f4i m\u1edbi “t\u1ec9nh l\u1ea1i” v\u00e0 c\u00f3 l\u00e0m b\u00e0i th\u01a1 d\u01b0\u1edbi \u0111\u00e2y \u0111\u1ec3 c\u1ea3m \u01a1n c\u00e1c b\u1ea1n bu\u1ed5i t\u1ed1i r\u1ea5t vui v\u00e0 c\u1ea3m \u0111\u1ed9ng \u0111\u00f3 – t\u00f4i s\u1ebd nh\u1edb m\u00e3i kh\u00f4ng qu\u00ean – v\u00e0 c\u0169ng \u0111\u1ec3 n\u00f3i l\u00ean ch\u00fat t\u00e2m s\u1ef1 l\u00fac b\u1ea5y gi\u1edd. V\u1edbi n\u0103m th\u00e1ng sau \u0111\u00f3, t\u00f4i ng\u00e0y c\u00e0ng t\u1ec9nh l\u1ea1i, nh\u01b0ng kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i qu\u00ean \u0111i “gi\u1ea5c m\u1ed9ng du” c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh, v\u00ec n\u00f3 l\u00e0 “ngu\u1ed3n s\u1ee9c m\u1ea1nh” \u0111\u00e3 gi\u00fap t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ee9ng d\u1eady.<\/p>\n Xin chia s\u1ebb v\u1edbi b\u1ea1n \u0111\u1ecdc m\u1ea5y d\u00f2ng nh\u00e2n ng\u00e0y Xu\u00e2n \u0111\u1ebfn:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n C\u1ea3m \u01a1n B\u1ea1n<\/em><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n Th\u1ebf l\u00e0 c\u0169ng \u0111\u1ebfn tu\u1ed5i 60<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Xu\u00e2n Xanh ch\u01b0a h\u1ebft, v\u1eabn y\u00eau \u0111\u1eddi,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u00f4 \u0111\u01a1n x\u1ee9 Ph\u1ed5 ch\u1eeb \u0111\u00e3 h\u1ebft,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Ch\u1eeb thi\u1ebfu old friends ki\u1ebfp n\u1ed5i tr\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Th\u1ebf l\u00e0 c\u0169ng \u0111\u1ebfn tu\u1ed5i 60<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u0169ng con, c\u0169ng v\u1ee3, c\u0169ng y\u00eau \u0111\u1eddi,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u0169ng vui, c\u0169ng gi\u1ee1n, nh\u01b0ng ai bi\u1ebft<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n M\u1ed9t cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi qua qu\u00e1 n\u1ed5i tr\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u0110\u1ec3 m\u00ecnh \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn tu\u1ed5i s\u00e1u m\u01b0\u01a1i<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Ph\u1ea3i qua bao c\u1ea3nh kh\u1ed5 tr\u00ean \u0111\u1eddi,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u0110\u00eam \u0111\u00e3 qua \u0111i tr\u1eddi s\u1ebd s\u00e1ng<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Tr\u1ea3 h\u1ebft n\u1ee3 n\u1ea7n ki\u1ebfp n\u1ed5i tr\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u0110\u1ec3 vui tr\u1ecdn v\u1eb9n tu\u1ed5i s\u00e1u m\u01b0\u01a1i<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u01af\u1edbc chi \u0111\u00f3ng g\u00f3p \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c cho \u0111\u1eddi,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u201cG\u01b0\u01a1m m\u00e0i b\u00f3ng nguy\u1ec7t\u201d bao n\u0103m \u0111\u00e3<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Mong s\u1ebd c\u00f3 ng\u00e0y \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u201cm\u00faa\u201d th\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n B\u1ea1n \u01a1i c\u00f3 bi\u1ebft tu\u1ed5i 60<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u0169ng c\u00f2n ng\u00fan l\u1eeda tu\u1ed5i 20,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Th\u00e2n n\u00e0y mu\u1ed1n x\u1ea3 cho \u0111\u1ea5t n\u01b0\u1edbc<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Nh\u01b0 thu\u1edf ch\u00fang m\u00ecnh l\u1eeda r\u1ef1c s\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u1ea3m \u01a1n b\u00e8 b\u1ea1n v\u1eabn nh\u1edb t\u00f4i<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n G\u1eedi l\u1eddi ch\u00fac t\u1ee5ng tu\u1ed5i 60<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n R\u1ea5t nh\u1edb b\u1ea1n \u01a1i, t\u00f4i r\u1ea5t nh\u1edb,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Th\u00e2m t\u00ecnh \u201c\u0110o\u00e0n K\u1ebft\u201d thu\u1edf xa x\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u00e1m \u01a1n b\u00e8 b\u1ea1n \u0111\u00e3 gi\u00fap t\u00f4i<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u00f3 ng\u00e0y sinh nh\u1eadt r\u1ea5t vui t\u01b0\u01a1i,<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n C\u00f3 hoa, th\u01a1, r\u01b0\u1ee3u, t\u00ecnh, \u1ea5m c\u00fang\u2026<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n Mu\u1ed1n n\u00edu th\u1eddi gian\u2026m\u00e3i\u2026kh\u00f4ng\u2026tr\u00f4i.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nguy\u1ec5n Xu\u00e2n Xanh<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n Ng\u00e0y 6, th\u00e1ng 8 n\u0103m 2002<\/p>\n Xem th\u00eam:<\/p>\n M\u1ed9t b\u00e0i th\u01a1 Xu\u00e2n g\u1eedi b\u1ea1n<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n